COURAGE
courage is not something i know intimately anymore. and to be fair i’m not sure if i ever did, not really. these days my courage, whatever it looks like, is either gone or barely breathing. i came across this video on twitter today and it left the word courage behind. when i took a good look at it, courage the cowardly dog popped into my head for the fist time in possibly decades. i think that’s the mood my courage is clinging onto right now. these words in particular by amanda gorman struck me when i hit play on the above:
“if i choose not to speak out of fear, then there’s no one that my silence is standing for”
and as i swapped out ‘speak’ for other verbs and actions that i claim are important to me it dawned on me again that i had grown even more silent and still than before. now there are pretty good reasons for this but left unchecked it could manifest into a reflection of myself that i wouldn’t be able to recognise or reach and not in a good way. and so i leaned into my guiding word for the year - patience - hard and have decided to do a vision board based on the goals i set myself when i turned 30 last year and review my plans to achieve them. i’ve never done these before but i’m wondering if this visual aid might help my courage stand on it’s own feet again and let go of the cowardice and doubt it seems to have made great friends with.
but enough about me, how’s your courage these days?